Spiritual Awakenings
Hey Queens! Today I want to talk to you about spiritual awakenings. Over the last almost 2 years we have all heard about or experience spiritual awakenings. Something about collective chaos and crisis tends to lead to these events.
What is a spiritual awakening?
Spiritual awakenings are the first step in a spiritual journey. It’s the moment you realize that everything you once believed in may not be true. It sounds so cute and fun like suddenly you feel like you’re floating, and you can manifest a million dollars and happiness for everyone.
But what really happens is you to start to question absolutely everything. Like, why am I here? What is the purpose of life? Why am I suffering? What do I believe in?
What triggers a spiritual awakening?
No two people have the same story for how or why their spiritual journey started. For some it seems to come out of nowhere. For others it comes from a tragedy or trauma like an illness, divorce, job loss, a world wide pandemic, or womxn losing their rights.
For me it started a long time ago and I’m not going to lie I was glad I didn’t go through it in a pandemic. When I was very young, I knew I was powerful – that might sound weird to some nonbelievers but whatever. When I was really young, I created and sold potions set with intentions (even though I didn’t know what intentions were). I had no doubt that I could see or hear ghosts or spirits. My grandmother’s house was haunted and no one I knew told me it was weird to believe in ghosts. I heard people talk about it like it was normal all the time. As I got a little older and spent less time talking about spirituality and more time in a traditional Christian church, I lost sight of these things. I was still spiritual, just in a Christian way. I spoke at church, sang in the choir, all the things. Then eventually my family moved, and we didn’t go to church much. Around this time religion as whole became less important to me as I became more focused on sports, friends, grades, and clubs. I was for sure an over achiever. Then, when I was in 7th grade a boy on the bus told me he was an atheist & I had no idea what that was (I was sheltered). As he explained that he didn’t believe in anything I thought this was amazing. Like I never knew that was an option and that intrigued me. I decided I too no longer believed in anything. Not I was fully in control of my life and that was pretty cool for a young control freak. Then a couple of years later a friend of mine died and I didn’t want to believe in nothing anymore because that many everyone I had lost was really gone forever and I hated that idea. I soon found friends who believed in witchcraft, and I loved it all so much. I dove into crystals, tarot, ghost hunting, all the things that a teenage baby witch loves. While I would love to tell you that was my final step in my journey it wasn’t. My spiritual journey has been far from linear as most people’s are. I have swayed back and forth between being fully invested in my gifts and spirituality to pretending none of it existed. In times of great stress, I have gone back to the church trying to find that community. Because truthfully, sometimes this path is a lot to handle and sometimes it is easier to be “normal.” However, when I lost my grandma, I went all in on my journey and have never looked back.
What does the beginning feel like?
Sorry loves, it is not all sunshine and rainbows. The beginning of a spiritual journey is often fraught with pain, isolation, disconnection. You’re feeling empty and you don’t know why. But the thing is you have to empty everything out of you before you can fill yourself with new things. Just like you can’t put milk in a cup that has soda in it. You have to first dump out the soda and wash the cup and then you can add the milk. The desire to purge everything is similar to when the seasons change, and you suddenly want to purge things from your home.
After this phase comes the questioning. You can no longer accept things as they are just because you always have. You cannot remain complacent to the injustices of the world. Your heart opens up to all of the causes.
You start searching for meaning and purpose. You start learning about personal development, metaphysical practices, and other spiritual practices.
As you go along you will connect with teachers and others also living a spiritual life. This is the time when you begin to feel empowered and might believe your journey is complete. For many people their journey does end here. They refuse to go any further and lean into the love and light theories. This is where you will see a lot of toxic positivity.
If you make it through this phase, then the next phase is disillusionment. You will begin to notice all of the fake spirituality around you. You may lose your connection to the Universe because you are distracted with other people’s journeys or your life problems. You might begin to question if you ever really had that connection. You will crave deeper levels of authenticity and be saddened when you realize how hard it is to find. Eventually you will come out of this phase and begin to again seek out more.
This leads you into shadow work, meditation, mindfulness, rituals and other journeys that you have to take alone. You cannot skip over this work – this is where the healing takes place!
Eventually, you realize you cannot hide alone forever, no matter how much you like it. You have to reintegrate into society and bring your new beliefs and self with you. At this phase your practices will be part of your daily life. This is the phase where you finally find the joy, enlightenment, and profound peace you have been looking for. You may even be ready to start helping others on their spiritual journeys now.
Please remember this path is not linear. It is normal to feel at peace and then be suddenly triggered and have to go back to shadow work. There is nothing wrong with skipping around. Your journey is going to be as unique as you are!
If you are struggling with your own spiritual journey, then please reach out! I would love to help you find some resources to help you out along the way. If you choose to seek answers by yourself, I want you to remember one key thing – if anyone talks to you about musts – like you must do this, you must not do this – run. Anyone with any amount of experience knows that what works for them may not be what works for you. We all work differently.
If you are looking for a supportive place to begin deconditioning your thoughts, I am hosting a group program – the Queen Mini Mind which combines tarot and journaling to help you start tapping into your intuition.
I love you all and appreciate you being here with me this week!
In Love & Abundance,
Falon